Mother's Day

Being a mother, has for me, been the single most amazing thing that this life has given me. Outside of my wedding day and other important events in my life, the day that your child is born, changes you irreparably. Your life is no longer about you. Your world broadens and the experience it brings is immeasurable. You are now responsible for this beautiful, helpless little life.

Being a mother has not always been an easy journey for me. I waited to have children a little later in my life. It was a big adjustment. Most of my insecurity stemmed from the fact that I didn't believe I could or would be a good mother. I was terrified of making mistakes, which inevitably I did and still do. I suffered post-partum depression after both of my children and that made the journey very difficult at times.

The rest of it, pure joy and unconditional love. I see my intense, passionate little girl, so much like her mother and so much not like her. I see her wonderful potential and her love of life and it makes my heart hurt with the love I feel. I see my second child, my little boy, and wonder how I could ever have felt that I would never love him as much as his sister. A friend told me that my heart would just grow bigger. How right she was. It simply expands to fit each child. I wouldn't change one minute of it. I am blessed. Completely blessed. My only wish is that I can have a big part in influencing my children for the good. That one day, they will look back and remember the good things and not so much the harder ones. That they can know that their mother always tried her best.

Speaking of mothers, I would not be a mother, or indeed, breathing air, if it hadn't been for my own mother. The mother of five children, who are all as individual as night is day. I know she and I have had our difficulties over the years, but being a mother has put some of those into perspective. Especially understanding how tough this job can sometimes be. Our relationship has matured over the years, and I see her loving my children, so deeply, and it gives me great joy.

The things that my children wrote on the homemade cards that they made, are the things that I will always treasure. I cried, but they were happy tears. Their love and sincerity is precious and innocent and I want to hold onto these days and keep them little for ever. For now, just loving them day by day will have to do.



Happy Mother's Day to my sisters, friends and blog friends who are all wonderful mothers and people. Hug your children tight today. Motherhood is the ultimate gift. And I especially salute all those single mothers out there. It's a difficult road to travel, but the results will be worth it.